Written by Benjiman Grant

But I’m A Creep, I’m A Weirdo, What The Heck Am I Doing Here?

Today I made a video…woo! I will share that and also discuss loneliness, Paul Rudd and offer support.

Featured Image – Today you get the other great companion in my life, Jango! He rawks!

Title Song – Richard Cheese – Creep (Radiohead Cover) – Honestly it could have been almost any of his Covers, they sum up how I feel so well. I am happy, but underneath its still sucky and painful.

Written by Benjiman Grant

‘Cos Everyday We Pay The Price With A Little Sacrifice, Jammin’ Till The Jam Is Through

Today I feel a bit sorry for myself and then talk about treatments and medication specifically my use of Marijuana. To finish, a little bit more of my creative writing.

Featured Image – Deetoo, from yesterday morning when I was laying in bed. She comes to give me hugs whenever I cry. between her and Jango I am spoilt for unconditional love sometimes.

Title Song – Bob Marley – Jammin’. Another song from home, introduced to me by my parents, I love this track so much. As a child I was convinced he said Ben Jammin. Which is where my misspelling of my name comes from for most of my social media.

Written by Benjiman Grant

Breathe, Breathe In The Air, Don’t Be Afraid To Care.

Today I shall share a piece of my creative writing, also a little chat about communication.

Featured Image – I got some yoghurts last week, They really must have known I was writing because they had loads of inspirational messages. So to everyone who sees this, You are beautiful!

Title Song – Pink Floyd – Speak To Me/Breathe – I love the music that my parents shared with me growing up. We always had music playing in the house. This song is probably my favourite opening track to any album.

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Sing With Me, Sing For The Year, Sing For The Laughter, Sing For The Tear, Sing With Me Just For Today, Maybe Tomorrow, The Good Lord Will Take You Away

Today I want to stand up and be proud. so I am going to.

Featured Image – A double rainbow taken from my window at the weekend. I was struggling to think what I wanted to talk about today, But this image reminded me of what is good in the world.

Featured Song – Aerosmith – Dream On. It really is an Anthem of positivity. It makes you want to hold the person next to you close, throw an arm in the air, and cheer with, ahem Glee (I will be proud to say I loved Shuster and NPH doing Dream on)

Written by Benjiman Grant

Well I Tripped, I Fell Down Naked. Well I Scratched My Knees, They Bled

Today I am taking a look at the changes I have made in the past 5 years, I suppose I will speak about the EU vote a little.

Featured Image – “I’ve got those happy feet” I took this photo in a pub called Carpe Diem, in Leeds. Carpe Diem – Seize the day. Both the place and the message resonated in me, I loved to skank!

Title Song – Billy Talent – Try Honesty – I think honesty with ourselves helps us reconnect to the world. It was either this or Fall Back Down by Rancid for today.

Written by Benjiman Grant

I’m Too Depressed To Go On, You’ll Be Sorry When I’m Gone

Today I am sharing a document I wrote about 5 years ago. WARNING – the writing content, is from one of the darkest times in my life. I want to share it to show everyone there is hope.

Featured Image – A daffodil from our garden, earlier this year. It is a juxtaposition to the content of this post, but to show that beauty is there in the simplest place.

Title Song – Blink 182 – Adam’s Song. A song about depression and some of the thoughts that run through our heads.

Written by Benjiman Grant

We Challenge You To A Rock Off! Give Us One Chance To Rock Your Socks Off

Today I look at the bigger picture. When the world gets on top of us, it can feel like there is no way out. I offer some suggestions for improvement, based on my own experiences. Also a small mention of tomorrow’s EU referendum vote.

Featured Image – Me, my face, and my plethora of hair, I am a walking wookiee. I love my own face, I hated myself for so long, it is great to have self confidence again. gimme a kiss MWAH X

Title Song – Tenacious D – Beelzeboss – I chose this for a good friend, Tim. We often used to sit on voice chat and rock out to ‘THE D’

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If I Leave Here Tomorrow, Would You Still Remember Me

Today I speak about how my pain impacts my life, being part of the world despite my troubles. Learning how to cope with the world around me, and a little memory.

Featured Image – A sketch I drew on my phone, when I close my eyes and visualise my pain, it takes on this appearance.

Title Song – Lynyrd Skynyrd – Freebird

Media Review

I Want My MTV

Today is Media Monday – I review

Orange is The New Black
Black Sails
Gone Home
L. Taylor Artsing

Title image – all the media being reviewed.

Title song – Dire Straits – Money For Nothing

Written by Benjiman Grant

The Animal, The Animal, Trap, Trap,Trap Till The Cage Is Full

Fathers day, going out for family food, and the reality of CRPS and how hard pain can be.

Picture – Tea from Gates garden centre, our lovely anniversary lunch.

Title Song – Regina Spektor – You’ve Got Time (Orange is the New Black Theme)